Talk About Teeter-Totters

Last week I was cruising on all cylinders, right on track and not tempted by much. Fast forward to the weekend and yesterday. I wasn't close to my point allotment. I used the majority of my weekly points over the weekend. Yesterday I got a new set of points, and poof, a majority gone. I have loads and loads of fitness points but you definitely can't exercise poor eating away. I'm living proof of that saying.
I just am starting to think I will never, ever have an easy time of maintaining weight loss.It will be a step forward and then a step backwards. I wish I would make progress to lose what I'd re-gained but I can't say that I am. I think I'm lower than at the beginning of November and in two week and a couple days, I will know if my experiment worked. That said, Christmas will be a mess. I can feel my resolve faltering. Hell, I got a jump start on it this weekend. And I dove straight in yesterday.
Sometimes I just can't stand myself, that I am so weak willed. On the plus side, I know I am not alone in that feeling. All the WW connectors, all the drug addicts, alcoholics, gamblers, know the issue. Addiction, whether food, drugs, alcohol, gambling, heck even shopping, is not possible to eradicate. It must be put in control because the temptation is always there. 
From Overeaters Anonymous:

The 12 steps as defined by Overeaters Anonymous and their corresponding spiritual ideals are as follows:

Honesty: Admitting you are powerless over foodHope: Believing that a higher power can help you obtain control over your addictionFaith: Turning your life over to God or another higher powerCourage: Creating a personal moral inventoryIntegrity: Admitting to God, yourself and others that you have made mistakes and admitting the exact nature of those mistakesWillingness: Being ready to ask God to remove the flaws you found in your personal moral inventoryHumility: Asking God for help in dealing with your flawsSelf-discipline: Making a list of all the people you have hurt and asking them to forgive youLove: Making amends to the people you have hurt except in cases where making amends would hurt them even morePerseverance: Continuing to take personal moral inventories and making changes to your life as neededSpiritual awareness: Working to improve your relationship with God and praying to understand his will for your lifeService: Carrying this message to other people who are addicted to food so they can learn how these principles may change their livesI think it is time to explore these 12 steps. Starting with today, #1, honest. I can and do admit I am powerless with food. It calls me with it's pretty looks, tempting smells, amazing tastes, sizzling sounds and textures. Yes, all 5 senses render me powerless over food. I fight my demons, yet they dog every one of my steps. Tomorrow, I tackle Hope.