So I'm about a month into my vow to be honest with myself, especially in regards to my eating lifestyle, WW. First, has it been tempting to fudge my nibbles? Yes it has. But from my past experience, that leads to guilt and then often emotional eating. Oh, then more guilt. More nibbles. You get the point. So self-honesty? I've got to say it works. I'm in control of my eating and my thoughts. What a novelty. Yesterday I had a handful of pretzel nuggets I hadn't tracked. My WW message had a rollover of 3 points. I looked at it and said, nope and went back and fixed yesterday's record. There is a certain amount of cleansing with that.
I admit there are days I want to weigh in to check on progress but I am going to make my resolve to wait until Jan. 2nd. Part of is not to let the scale beat me up and another part is using it to keep the holiday tracks on my chosen lifestyle and not leave me cast along side of the road. And thank you to my dermatologist office for not making me weigh in last week. I really didn't want to explain not wanting to know, especially when it wasn't the weigh in time of my day (no clothes, first thing in the morning).
So between the last two paragraphs, there is a hint of my issues -> environment playing mind games. The scale always plays with my mind. "Why bother" "Yay a loss" "I didn't deserve to gain" "If I've gained, then I should just eat and make it enjoyable"./ Any of these self-defeating statements apply??? The other environment is little lies derail me more than a co-worker offering me snacks, a candy dish on the way to the rest room, etc.
So I'm going strong and want to stay that way. Hell, I even told my BFF when she asked about a hooky trip from work to SBux that I just really want to stay on plan and not use Sbux points on my daily allotment. So not only am I being honest with myself, I've started being honest of my needs with my inner circle. When I lost all the weight two years ago, I did it without involving my DH because he worked swing shift and me days. Now he is retired and is the chief cook. In the past week, I have been saying things like "No that doesn't fit in my points budget" or "The sweet potatoes are too big. Do you want to split one or have one and a half?" Actually I had the whole thing since I found a small on in the bag. But the point is that I was standing up for what I need to be successful. Both DH and BFF were totally behind me to help. Who knew that was possible?
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